(502) Days of A.G.

There's one thing I noticed after falling in love. All of those really corny love songs on the radio FINALLY made sense! Instead of being slightly envious towards these tracks, they actually made me smile. "Wonderwall", "Crash Into Me" and "I Want To Hold Your Hand" finally had substance, and memories that matched the lyrics. I've noticed lately how the music I listen to often reflects how I'm feeling at the time. Sometimes it's nice to know that the person writing the song feels the same way you do, or did at some point in their life.

With that said............here is my playlist for the week. Simply titled,

(502) Days of A.G.

1. Aresenic & Clover -State Radio
2. Betterman -Pearl Jam
3. I'll Follow The Sun -The Beatles
4. Brian Wilson -Barenaked Ladies
5. No Excuses -Alice In Chains
6. Belated Promise Ring -Iron & Wine
7. Schism -Tool
8. Hey You -Pink Floyd
9. Still Water -Daniel Lanois
10. Halloween -Dave Matthews Band

"His First Week"

Wow, what a crazy week.

Just finished up helping to open a new restaurant this week at my new job. It was a lot of fun, and I learned a lot, but it was definitely a lot of work. Now that that is all over, I'm moving to different, more distinguished location. I'm really looking forward to it, as they'll have me training on all the different stations. From there, I'll eventually take on an apprenticeship to the GM position. The company and I are both really excited as we move forward, and I'm looking forward to see what the future brings.

I got to see my best friend for the first time today since I've been back, which was an awesome way to spend my day off. He brought over a short story he wrote for school which was partially based on myself, and he let me read it. I was touched, to say the least. It hit pretty close to home, (duh), but it was very well written. I guess you can say I felt honored that he would even think of doing such a thing.

I'm sitting here with a box of things I must return to her, which I'm really dreading. For me, bringing back these things is like quitting, and that means it really is over. Oh well, hopefully we can get this over with in the next few days.

Just don't forget that I still love you.

PostSecret of the week.

Food With Integrity

1. No growth hormones added
2. No antibiotics given
3. Vegetarian diet
4. Naturally raised (No CAFO's)

^These are all applicable to the meat products at Chipotle Mexican Grill, my new job. Not only do these rules apply, but they also use a lot of organic produce, and they buy local products when they're in season.

I started the job a few days ago, after a little bit of last minute decisions and mis-communication. I was supposed to start in about a week, but everything just happened to quickly. I was on payroll less then 24 hours after my graduation. It's been a very hectic week, but it's been very rewarding. I love it there, and I'm very happy with my decision. Everything seems so simple/straightforward, but not necessarily easy. It's been a challenge, but I can't wait to see where the next few years take me.


As for the PostSecret of the week:

Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

#41

Just sharing one of my absolute favorites. Amazing lyrics, amazing jam.



"I wanted to stay, I wanted to play, I wanted to love you. I'm only this far, and only tomorrow leads the way," ~Dave Matthews



Graduation tomorrow, congratulations everyone.

Words From The Wise

About two weeks ago, a dear friend at school had her heart broken. It was sad to watch, and you could tell the news came as a surprise. She may be one of the most intelligent people I know, and has a good head on her shoulders. A few days ago, she posted this list somewhere online. It hurt to read it, as it reminded me of my current situation.

The following is transcribed with her permission:

1. If they can't commit, it means they don't want to commit to you.

2. In order for them to be worth it to you, you should be worth it to them.

3. If they would rather be with someone who is not as ambitious, smart or goal-oriented as you, let them. They don't value you. And you deserve to be valued.

4. If they believe that they don't deserve you, then they probably don't.

5. Your optimism can be your downfall. Sometimes it's important to be realistic. Not everyone can live up to their own potential. And nothing you do will ensure that they do. They have to do it on your own.

6. If they are not calling you, they don't care.

7. Being lonely is not the same thing as wanting them back. Don't confuse the two.

8. You must value yourself. You must know your own worth.

9. If they don't see your value then they are a fool. If they see your value and don't want you, then they are a damned fool. And if they see your value, want you, but don't want to put in any of the effort to be with you, then they are so much worse than a fool, they are stupid.

10. Life is a process. You just have to let go and let God.


I love you Allyson Lea

Life Gets In The Way

I'm trying my best to keep with the blog, but it seems like life often gets in the way. The past week has been nothing but crazy. It was the last week of my college career, and was supposed to be a happy time. Unfortunately, she broke up with me in the middle of all this craziness, making life a little more hectic.

I have considered dedicating a blog post to her, telling her my true feelings. After many drafts, I finally deleted it. If its space she wants, I guess its space she'll get. Anyway, it's really fucked with my head. We had been counting down until the day I get to come home. We started counting down 16 months ago, and she decided to end it all 7 days before my arrival. It's left me feeling pretty empty and uninspired, and I'm not to sure what I really want to write about. I really want to start dissecting the final season of L O S T, but I can't get her out of my head.

Something tells me this is going to take some time.

PostSecret of the week:

Bad Apple

I'm sure everyone as seen it by now. Last Wednesday Apple released their much rumored 'tablet' out in CA. The new device, simply named iPad was supposed to be revolutionary. There have been many rumors flying around the past few months, and it seems like people were genuinely excited. Unfortunately, it appears as though Apple as failed to deliver.

Initially, I got really excited by the new device. It looked really cool, and sure, you can do some pretty cool things with it. But....is any of this really new? Between my MacBook and iPod Touch, I am connected all the time. (Probably too often actually). My iPod is the internet/email/4,000+ songs/movies/tv shows in my pocket, and my laptop is small enough to carry anywhere. I don't understand Apple's push for this new middle device. I'm a strong believer that they make quality products that are superior/more reliable to their competitors, but I'm not sure where they are going with this.



If we have learned anything from Apple over the past 10 years or so, it's that they still have something up their sleeves. My guess is that when they release a newer version in 1-2 years, it will bring something new to consumers. But until then, I'm going to have to sit this one out.

Also as promised, my selection for PostSecret of the week.